I made it into Barnum!  Woohoo, now I totally have a  really solid summer plan; that is AWESOME!  I don't know what role I have yet (or even if I have one), but I'm at least on the crew, if nothing else, and that is honestly more than good enough for me.  Teehee.

I'm so excited.  I totally bombed my audition, too; I'm relatively surprised.

Yey!

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Oh, and thank you so much for the prayers, guys.  Honestly.  Thank you.

So . . . yeah.

I don't know who I can trust with what and whatnot, so really I have no point left for this site.  Which makes me really sad, but whatever.  I guess in several ways, it'll be good for me to start bcoming a more private person, and it will make a few of my friendships all the more intimate.

I've talked to a few of you and there are a few more that I need to talk to; msn me if you want to chat and think that I might have something to tell you.  People like Laura and Stephanie and them definately should talk to me.

superactresstotherescue@hotmail.com is my msn.

Yeah.

I don't have anything deep left in me, I'm afraid.  Or maybe I'm afraid and therefore don't have anything deep.  I'm not sure.

Joey sent me this song tonight, I think it's sweet.  So, goodnight, my faithful readers.  Talk to me later if you can; I still want to keep in touch, but I just can't do it this way, apparently.  -sigh-  I love my life; it rocks.  Jesus rocks.  I'm fine. 

"You're the Inspiration" by Chicago

The kind of love to last forever
And I want you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know
Everywhere I go
Always on my mind
In my heart
In my soul
Baby

You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me saying
"No one needs you more than I need you"

And I know (And I know)
Yes I know that it's plain to see
So in love when we're together
Now I know (Now I know)
That I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know (Yes, you need to know )
Everywhere I go
You're always on my mind
You're in my heart
In my soul

You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me saying
"No one needs you more than I need you"
(No one needs you more than I)
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me saying
"No one needs you more than I need you"
(No one needs you more)
You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration

When you love somebody
'Til the end of time
When you love somebody
Always on my mind / No one needs you more than I
When you love somebody
'Til the end of time
When you love somebody
Always on my mind / No one needs you more than I

For all this praying I've done about wanting to fall flat-on-my-face in love, I left out a relatively important detail.

It'd be nice if they fell in love with me, too.

I want to fall in love with Jesus.  I want to more than I have ever wanted anything ever in my life.  And somehow, I'm going about it wrong, because it really just isn't working.

Which is really sad.

God, I love You...

Face

                       away

                                              ...and pretend that I'm not.

 But I'll be here

                                                                                                                                  ...'cause you're all that I got.